A Move

Dear family and friends, especially those who has been around and about reading my blog here...well, just wanna tell u guys that i have moved..no not my house..my blog has been moved HERE!
no worries i'll not remove any of my post or poems here..
so see u there la...
*cheers*
chaoz..
xoxo
                            

Numb

Silently she holds her breath,
the doctor ran out of anaesthetics,
she bit hard on the china,
the blood surges out profusely,
streams of tears flow.
She knows she is alive,
very much.
The tears are more then it seems,
she couldn't believe what she learned to know,
all these years what seems to be of lies,
all these years of trust,
all these while..
Staring at her bonnet and her torn corset,
all she felt was numb.

Disturbing

Lately been feeling disturbed easily..
No, not the eerie type or what so ever but it's a state where you just don't feel comfortable, more to the sense of lost.
Example, where has Ronald, Grimace, Hamburglar, the Professor and Marianne, Mayor McCheese, Big Mac, Birdie and Captain Crook gone???
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I find it really disturbing that they are no more in McDonalds to greet you or stare at you with their wide smiles. Even McD's play corner doesn't has any of these mascot..
WHERE ON EARTH ARE THEY??
Its super disturbing.
 
 
At the same time, not long ago, my group-mate, Lawrence found out that I don't play computer games and not knowing how to, so he drag me along with Minxi and Alex to the nearest CC around to teach me (thought the reason is clear that he want to play it more then me) by introducing CS, which stands for Counter Strike.
Gosh, the bloody game is just so blooooody!
And not forgetting to mention that my character dies before I can even move! Some people are such big bullies!
Its so sad that whenever I try to move then the next thing I know I am dead with bloody splattered all over my screen.Sigh.
But the main point is that teenagers indulge doin so!
Isn't it disturbing..In that CC itself, you can see majorities are teenagers and not suprisingly all them are playing such brutal games..
It's sick! Just look at how intense they are. *pokes below*
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Another disturbing encounter I experience is both my hands has the ying and yang effect. Ok, there is no such term but let say I called it ying and yang efect. What I am trying to say is when my left hand is feeling cold and numb, the other is perfectly warm or vise versa. It happend so frequently that I think that my termostart in my body has gone gila..or there's really something wrong with both my hands that can't remain in the same temperature at the same time..
Damn disturbing.
 
 
Then just awhile ago, I find something disturbing..I have this friend who is frequently emofied, to release his emo-lings he blogs about them..And I found out about  ..
I can't believe that he use my graffiti wall to show his anger..damn sad rite??? Not only that he also drew this on my grafiti wall.. *points below*
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Yea, the one with heart shapes..do you notice a black heart there?? he told me that the black heart refers to him..  0.o
I am so disturbed now..Lausy jon!
 
 
Gosh..think am goin bonkers soon..sighh..
i think i should stop here before more weird stories come out and i might infect you with my disturbing virus..matter of fact, am pretty stoned at the mo..till then peeps..

Emo

Gosh, I've been pretty soppy these days..any wee bit emo stories i came across, i start to tear...yikes, getting bit sensitive..lol..am wondering what happends when my menopause arrives in future..i'll be far super duper emo..hope not.. *fingers crosssed*
Neway, ran across this *points below* that was posted in friendster by Audrey, no, not my mom..Audrey Malenee from school..yes, the lil(not so now) red ridding hood girl in primary school..hehehe..it's so touching..bless the souls that are like Mr. Miller..it inspires people to help each other esp the less fortunate ones..ok, enough of what I think, here's the story;
 
Red Marbles
 
I was at the corner grocery store
buying some early potatoes. I
noticed a small boy, delicate of bone
and feature, ragged but clean,
hungrily apprising a basket of freshly
picked green peas. I paid for my
potatoes but was also drawn to the
display of fresh green peas. I am a
pushover for creamed peas and new
potatoes. Pondering the peas, I
couldn't help overhearing the
conversation between Mr. Miller (the
store owner) and the ragged boy next
to me.
 
"Hello Barry, how are you today?"
 
"H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya.
Jus' admirin' them peas. They sure
look good."
   
"They are good, Barry. How's your
Ma?"
   
"Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time."
   
"Good. Anything I can help you
with?"
   
"No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas."
   
"Would you like to take some home?"
asked Mr. Miller.
   
"No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em
with."
 
"Well, what have you to trade me for
some of those peas?"
   
"All I got's my prize marble here."
   
"Is that right? Let me see it" said
Miller.
   
"Here 'tis.. She's a dandy."
   
"I can see that. Hmmmmm, only thing
is this one is blue and I sort of go
for red. Do you have a red one like
this at home?" the store owner asked.
 
"Not zackley but almost."
   
"Tell you what. Take this sack of peas
home with you and next trip this way
let me look at that red marble" .
Mr. Miller told the boy.
   
"Sure will.. Thanks Mr. Miller."
 
Mrs. Miller, who had been standing
nearby, came over to help me. With a
smile she said, "There are two other
boys like him in our community, all
three are in very poor
circumstances. Jim just loves to
bargain with them for peas, apples,
tomatoes, or whatever. When they
come back with their red marbles, and
they always do, he decides he doesn't
like red after all and he sends them
home with a bag of produce for a green
marble or an orange one, when they
come on their next trip to the store."
   
I left the store smiling to myself,
impressed with this man. A short
time later I moved toColorado, but I
never forgot the story of this man,
the boys, and their bartering for
marbles.
 
Several years went by, each more rapid
than the previous one. Just recently
I had occasion to visit some old
friends in that Idaho community and
while I was there learned that Mr.
Miller had died. They were having
his visitation that evening and
knowing my friends wanted to go, I
agreed to accompany them. Upon
arrival at the mortuary we fell into
line to meet the relatives of the
deceased and to offer whatever words
of comfort we could
 
Ahead of us in line were three young
men. One was in an army uniform and
the other two wore nice haircuts, dark
suits and white shirts....all very
professional looking. They approached
Mrs. Miller, standing composed and
smiling by her husband's casket. Each
of the young men hugged her, kissed
her on the cheek, spoke briefly with
her and moved on to the casket.
 
Her misty light blue eyes followed
them as, one by one, each young man
stopped briefly and placed his own
warm hand over the cold pale hand in
the casket. Each left the mortuary
awkwardly, wiping his eyes.
 
Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I
told her who I was and reminded her of
the story from those many years ago
and what she had told me about her
husband's bartering for marbles. With
her eyes glistening, she took my hand
and led me to the casket.
   
"Those three young men who just left
were the boys I told you about. They
just told me how they appreciated the
things Jim "traded" them. Now, at
last, when Jim could not change his
mind about color or size....they came
to pay their debt."
   
"We've never had a great deal of the
wealth of this world," she
confided, "but right now, Jim would
consider himself the richest man in
Idaho ."
 
With loving gentleness she lifted the
lifeless fingers of her deceased
husband. Resting underneath were
three exquisitely shined red marbles.
 
   
The Moral : We will not be
remembered by our words, but by our
kind deeds. Life is not measured by
the breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath.
   
 
Now, you noe what i meant, it's touching.. *happy sigh*
Thanks God, for sending his troops to set more examples for us..ain't we lucky..you see, life is not alwayz bad, it's actually how you set your perspective on it..fine,shit do happends but never the less, after cleaning it you are cleaner..ok la, my explanation sucks but at least you get my point.. =p
My main point is that life is indeed beautiful, if you could just stop by and smell the roses..
*inhales slowly feeling thankful*
 
 
ps: mingy, *points at the colour of the fonts* it's green again..weee~!

mama

she sat herself at the side of the porch..
   
staring at the flower that blooms out of her mother's favourite pot..
   
how pretty an ugly bald seed grow into, she wonders
   
her fringe is cut into bangs and her hair is as black as night
   
she is in her favourite gold embroidery pink cheongsam her grandfather sew
   
her cheeks as fair as white tulips and lips like as small and red as melon seed..
   
her eyes  are ever so bright, papa thinks she'll be a smart woman when she grows up..
   
she clungs to her favourite doll that is made out of cloth rags ever so dear..
   
tho mama is gone, she was sure that mama is always there like the stars that accompanied her at night..
   
her little finger delicately touched the petal and silently she sobs
   
her little heart must be missing mama..
   
hush little girl, hush, hush...
 
 
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edited version by chin
She sat herself at the porch side.
 
staring at the flower blooming from her mother's favourite pot
 
How pretty, how ugly the bald seed grows, she wonders
 
her fringe cut into bangs, her hair dark as night
 
In her favourite embroidery gold cheong sam her grand father sewed
 
her cheeks fair as white tulips, lips, small and red like melon seeds
 
her eyes ever so bright, papa knows she'll be smart when she grows up..
 
clinging to her favourite doll of cloth rags ever so dear
 
mama's gone... but she was sure mama's there as sure as the stars that accompanied her at night...
 
her little heart must be missing mama..
 
hush little girl....hush....hush...

Radios In Heaven

This is one of my favourite song, and i would like to dedicate it those in heaven especially Pohyee's mum..and not forgetting KC, godma, and my grandfathers who left much earlier..oh yea, and donna too... <3 <3 <3
"Radios In Heaven"


Your time has already come and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's house
well you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like you
I hope I turn out to be as good as you

Friday Fun

hey people, me just got back aft awhile fr ipoh..hehe..tho i just came back...am already missing mum's cooking...sighhh...
tak pe, akan ku balik khamis ini..yay~~!!
newayz, am suppose to show u guys some photos taken on friday..sorry, cant upload earlier due to my ipoh internet connection is really lausy and also that i can't upload that much of photos due the fact that friendster blog limits you to only upload 50pic a month... -_-
ok, back to friday, there's two highlights on that day..
1st, we had our presentation for management..and it's one of my favourite presentation because we get to 'tembak' the groups with lotsa questions...lol..to be honest i won't like to be in their shoes, imagine you and your group will be bombard with lotsa questions(fr us, mainly max, journalist-to-be, mingy, p.r. personel-to-be and me, advertiser-to-be) in all kinds of forms..*gulps*..and we some how realise the groups that we bombard are mainly groups that are either not prepared or had selected their topic last minute or both..
We were pretty worried that we will be bombarded the same but suprisingly, no one even asked us a single question..  o.O
hehe..glad but sadly, we wont be obtaining any extra marks because marks are only given when you answer impromptu questions sucessfully.. ok, enough of my crap here are few of the pics of my group taken by cheeho(thx dude) with my phone..
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that's all for our presentation..i shall move on the next highlight..
it was also cheeboon's b'day so we had a gathering at McD near my plc, and these are the photos..no more aft this, i have used up my quota for this month..*sob sob*
newayz, Happy 21st CheeBoon.. *ahem ahem ahem*
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hehehe..thats all the pictures for now..hehe...i realise i took more of mingy's photo then the b'day boy....lol...wil show u guys the photos in my friendster profile soon..hehehe..by the way, i'll be editing some of these and the ones that i wont get to post out soon...hehe..am so into photoshop, super fun weh..hehehe...
tho every now and then i need to bug my sifu to teach me..thx ya, jon..hehe..am still learnin kay.. =p
tata..til then...

On a Sunday with Janice

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How much girlie can I be when I meet up with Jan on a sunday and get to spend the whole day with her..hehe..so as usual our shopping plans takes over straight aft mass and of course breakfast..
We head over to bangsar to 'jalan-jalan', no, we did not do the usual mall shop in Bangsar we literally walk the streets ther..boutique-hoping..hehe..it was fun..went to almost all the boutique there is along the few streets there..from 'blook' to the latest edition of boutique 'musse' yes, my legs are aching..but no complains..heee..am loving my day..here are some pic I took when I remember to or am not lazy or have the guts to whip out my fon to snap away...lol..
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and these are some of the interior that I took..
Dsc01508 at 'Vivien Tsai's Warddrobe'
Dsc01509 at 'Vivien Tsai's Warddrobe' also
Dsc01514  at 'bacis"
  I think they all are competing hard to impress the consumer..lol..
and lastly, sweet Jan drove us to Curve's flea market..yayyy!..hehehe..mainly koz i drove her mad by suggesting to go there again and agaon..hehe..well Jan, luckly you decided so if not we wont get those dresses in Tribeca..weeeee~~
*heart* you, Janice!
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hehe..and yea, we had meatballs in Ikea for dinner..*double weeee~*...for Ikea shoppers, 'IKEA IS ON SALES!'
but too bad we din shop in Ikea..kinda tired and stuffed after the meatballs..hehe..

I love taking pictures..

Hmm..I realise I hven been bloggin much..hmm..very me..lol..
ok, have decided to show some of the pictures I took tru out these few weeks when my subjects are either conscious, not conscious or some make conscious..have fun browsing tru..i definitely have fun taking them..lol
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Dsc01361 Minxi tryin to smell his armpit??
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Dsc01428 lenard bugger..xoxo
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Dsc01486 Lawrence Lye Chao Ping
Dsc01491   Ms. Dreamer
Dsc01488 Mr.SS..lol..

Dsc01492_2  Ms. Sweetie
Dsc01495 guess who is this..
Dsc01438 Marble Brownie Cheese Cake
hehehe..that's all for now..see you guys soon..

Charity Tag

This is a charity tag, tagged by dear Melvin. Hven been doin such since ages and since this is for charity..here goes..
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The tag is completing a minimum 17 of the 27 phrases provided:
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1. A person is only as good as a kind soul.
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2. Friendship is always uniquely colourful.
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3. To love is to put yourself aside and give.
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4. Money makes me more loaded with eartly missile.
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5. I miss the time when my paternal grandfather is around, my days with my close friends back in Convent and RPS, my 'art-mojo-jojo' kicks in, and much more. *gettin nostalgic*
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6. My way of saying I care is when discreetly I turn my attention to.
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7. I try to spread love and happiness by God's work in everything I do.
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8. Pick the flowers when it is raining and you are singging.
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9. To love someone is to be able to sacrifice, share, and let go.
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10. Beauty is only a description of a value.
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11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was I got 100% for my history and that is the one and only time.lol.
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12. When I was twenty one, I remember I miss all the good food my mom and grandmother used to cook.
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13. I am most happy when I walk among the stars in the galaxy.
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14. Nothing makes me happier than sculpting people with smiles .
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15. If I can change one thing, I would go back in time to make sure Adam and Eve did not eat the forbidden fruit.
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16. If smiles were as very lasting as it is very contageous.
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17. Wouldn’t it be nice if we could make love instead or war?
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18. If you want to have supper, by all means go ahead!
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19. Money is not everything in living life to the fullest.
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20. The most touching moment I have experienced is when I was in my confirmation camp for the healing session.
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21. I smile when ever it is possible.
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22. When I am happy, I will try to share it.
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23. If only I don’t have to get up early everyday, then I'll be very glad.
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24. The best thing I did yesterday was not being greedy and only took 1 1/2 piece of pizza even though that is not enough..lol
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25. If I ever write a book, I will give it the title ‘Purple Poppy'.
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26. One thing I must do before I die is to waltz under the moonlight in a garden with my love!
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27. Doing this meme, I feel exhausted and sleepy.
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Finally,it's complete..
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Therefore, must tag Zan,W.Spykerman, Ming-Y, MinXI and Z.
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ps; did this on the 25th July..took me ages to able to post it out.